Like a baby learning to walk
by repeatedly falling, though relentless
to keep trying; undaunted by failure,
determined to succeed, knowing we will stand,
we must humbly, yet confidently approach Krishna.
Like a baby learning to walk
by repeatedly falling, though relentless
to keep trying; undaunted by failure,
determined to succeed, knowing we will stand,
we must humbly, yet confidently approach Krishna.
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Not completely sure what it is that brings
the urge to write and express–what?
the intensity I feel in the heart
of being so much more than
I could possibly express–though I keep trying.
In some ways I’m at peace
in my body, awakening Krishna’s
gifts of service, yet part of me
remembers that I’m a soul who
doesn’t need a body, and wants out.
I do know I have to remain here
though contrary feelings swirl inside
while writing helps sort them out,
hoping to help you know that
you are not alone in duality and struggle.
In the Gita we learn that the world
is constantly changing; different emotions,
different seasons, stages of mind, ages of body,
types of karma and mercy; ups, downs, arounds,
forward, backward, competing modes, never the doer.
By blessings, spiritual knowledge, experience, sadhana
we learn that all these changes and dualities
are unnatural for us, the soul, and thus we
seek true permanence and stability of being
in our constitutional nature of Krishna Prema and Seva.
I know I’m getting somewhere here
as my eyes are tearing up,
like getting a glimpse of my
true authentic self beyond matter,
consciousness, experiencer trying to come out.
Other then uncovering the soul
there is no other problem (to be realized!);
because we have desires we have
created obligations and responsibilities
by which we define ourselves.
Alas for the false ego that runs
my life in the vain pursuit to keep
the illusion going—I know I keep
saying this—but have we really understood?:
Krishna’s the real center, we orbit around him.
The common themes I express in
verse indicate I stand before a vast
chasm or high hurdle I must go beyond,
over, or through to the other side of anarthas
to the high stages of devotion and prema.
Like a baby learning to walk
by repeatedly falling, though relentless
to keep trying; undaunted by failure,
determined to succeed, knowing we will stand,
we must humbly, yet confidently approach Krishna.
If we are sincere in our endeavor
keeping alive the fire of faith
praying for help to be always steady
in our attempt, our love will be uncovered
for Krishna and we’ll live in his abode.
Then all parts of us will be in
harmony and unity; we’ll be satisfied
in our true, pure nature of total giving
and service to that person who is more
dear than life, we attain ideal, lasting love.
We can’t go to Krishna’s Temple
with our shoes on—we have to leave
our false conceptions, material dirt and desires
outside, putting on spiritual raiment
of pure heart, loving desires of selfless service.
Our attempts to express our deepest love and
affection for Krishna are never finished; we keep
singing his glories and pastimes forever, continuing
to serve by sharing our love as we desire by cooking,
cleaning, decorating for him, now and in perfection.